Postscript for A Note to A Friend

To my beloved son and daughters, let me explain
Surely here's a lesson or two for you to gain
Be careful in whatever things you say or do
or risk causing harm to others when you don't intend to.

Promises, once made shouldn't be broken
For each of us shall be asked on the day of Judgment
On that great that day it shall be made known
The great divide between Muhsinun, Munafiqun and Kafirun.

Never let other people down,
for things that goes around, will surely comes around.

As to where I shall be placed? I can't speculate
Tis is better to strive hard now before its too late
For your dad have done so many things wrong
Please pray for me that I'll remain strong.

Yes, I had planned for these in advance
For I can't see the future,
May be tomorrow I am gone and no longer here
Trust me, tis still not too late to start
Before the hour comes for us to depart.
(See related post : http://alalhusna.blogspot.com/2011/01/ratapan-dari-kubur.html)



To my beloved wife, sisters and brothers, friends alike
whom had supported me through thick and thin
I am truely indebted, for seeing to it that I win
Selamat Hari Raya - Maaf Zahir & Batin!

Yours truly,
zaws

A Note to a Friend (Part V)

In photography and angling I perfected my art
Between the times I do my lawyering of sorts
With the Holy Quran, my heart won't smart
Dear Sis, I beg forgiveness for this world and Akhirat
I am a mere human being, of flesh and blood
A saint - certainly I am not!

Although I am not bidding farewell to you, my dear friend
I wish you as I always do, with a wry smile & heart in my hand
May Allah provide His blessings to you & family
Live long, happy and prosper till the end.

Amin.
Wasallallahu ala Khairi Khalkika Saiyidina Muhammadanin Nabiyyi Ummiyi wa ala Alihi wasahbihi wasallam
Walhamdulillahi Rabbil A'lamin

(Next installment - Postscript : for son & daughters)

A Note to a Friend (Part II)

The room's spinning, I felt, as I reflect further
My heart and mind failed to synchronize and won`t let go
I doubted myself and know not what to tell you
And unsure If I should ever let you know.

Now I come to the difficult point
with grave difficulty to event start
I could end up rambling madly on and on
While despair sets in quickly in my heart.

All those times I spoken to you
It may appear to you that perfectly I am alright
Maybe its time I'll let you know
Great many times I cried myself to sleep at night.

As I`m laying motionless all day dreaming
trying to divert my mind but lost without a clue
Incapable to pen these thoughts coherently
for I am still far away from being through.

The affliction I had, I vowed to never let you see
My failing health & broken heart kept on hurting me
For alone I endured the hurt, the tears and the pain
Forever hiding myself from others, in the rain.

Frankly, I never believe I would ever recover
Longing to embrace the end that might well be near
Maybe my time's up and tis just around the corner
If not today, tomorrow or perhaps the day after.

Now time had passed and all of that is over
I`ve started again and hopefully I am now free
Sis, you probably wouldn't have the slightest idea
What you had actually done to me.

As I`m now calmly writing this down
I recalled being lonely, confused and had nothing to look forward to
Yes, shamefully its really true...
My principle idea of worldly happiness was
a simple notion of spending my entire life with you.

True love are the ones we keep close
The ones that one couldn't live without
The ones who really touched your hearts
Once you were mine, beyond a doubt.

I`m almost done writing to you my dear
I hope I had made it crystal clear
That I had really loved you so very much
And had always prayed for you to be here.

(next installment - Part III)